Have I totally lost it? Or have I officially been messaged —repeatedly now—by an angel, a departed loved one, or even God?!
Ordinarily, I get through the toils and snares of my life by praying, reaching out to wiser ones, and meditating on The Serenity Prayer. But time and intensity can take its toll. Truth be told, lately I’ve felt almost ground down to the nub. I know am very blessed with a wonderful nuclear family, a host of quality friends, and an incredible, insightful therapist. I know I can’t make it without turning to my Higher Power on a daily basis. Yet, even with these supports, I confess I’ve been struggling to keep the faith.
Maybe I got to critical mass last week and somebody, somewhere thought I needed serious signage!
Last Tuesday when I was at my grant-writer job reading my mail, I noticed something a bit odd. A particular and faithful corporation who gives us a good-size check every year at this time had a “bungle” on the salutation part of their formal business letter explaining their grant award.
They had addressed the letter to Tanja Esperanza Moriarty. Esperanza? Well, my professional ‘signature’ for the past 9 years has always been “Tanja B. Moriarty.” I don’t even spell out or usually hyphenate my maiden name at work. I just use the B and a period.
In my very limited Spanish, I know that Esperanza means “hope.” Ha! I’m sure short in that department, I thought.
I showed the letter and “Esperanza” to my co-worker Val. A woman of strong faith without missing a beat claimed, “That’s God giving you a little encouraging punch on the shoulder.”
I was still in “self-wallowing mode” and said, “Hope-schmope!”
“Come on, Girl,” she scolded.
I smirked, but since I’ve had more than a few funky/spiritual things happen in my life (see Mind,Body, Soul posts), I decided to make a copy of the letter to keep in my pocketbook. Had the door to my hardened heart opened just a crack?
The very next day, I went to outpatient radiology for my annual mammogram. I checked in at the window and was told to take a seat. I grabbed a chair in the waiting area and wouldn’t ya know it? Right in front of me was a small table with this tri-fold brochure staring me right in the face:
My heart jumped a bit. The crack of the door of my boarded-up heart pushed open just a teeny bit further. “O.K.” I said aloud. “I’m paying attention.”
Later that afternoon, I had met my wonderful pastor for cup of coffee at Sweet Harmony Cafe and Bakery on Main Street. Pastor Joon Lee and I periodically do this to check in with each other. After a good-sized gingerbread-chocolate latte I contemplated the extremely cold weather and bouncy-back road ride home, and decided it would be wise to hit the little girl’s room before I left.
You won’t believe this, but as I sat on the porcelain, I turned to my right and saw THIS was hanging on the wall:
The small print reads, “Learn from yesterday, live for today, HOPE for tomorrow.”
It was like lightning! Esperanza! Hope is Power! Hope for Tomorrow!
I left the coffee shop tingling, and it wasn’t all from the caffeine! Someone, somewhere was conking me over the head to “Have Hope, Tanja “Esperanza” B. Moriarty!”
Here I was, feeling at the end of my rope…and out of God-knows-where comes a barrage of “hope”, “hope”, “hope.”
What do you think, my friend? Who has been messaging me with these signs? Or would you say it is just one of those coincidences? Please share your opinion, your personal experiences.
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Of course, you know it is a message from Our God
God my friend. Definately God. ❤
It is dawning on me that God truly loves us and has always wanted to help us “fly right”. We are given tools, messages, people all throughout our lives to help us cope…but to go beyond coping to experience great joy! I think back to an early age at Camp Nathan Hale in Coventry (“poor kids’ Salvation Army camp”) where we were introduced to each other (Thank You, Thank You God!) and we were introduced to Jesus and received our glow-in-the-dark crosses. When camp was over, they set us out to face the world. You and I stayed soul sisters all this time proving there is a Merciful God.
It was one of those forlorn, lost, depressing, lonely, hopeless times in my life. I sat on the dock of Lake Livingston on a bright, sunny Sunday morning after spending the week-end alone up in Livingston, a small town on the lake north of Houston. I got up to leave..and that voice that talks to me, the one that has no gender, said, “Look down.” I did and right there in the grass was a four leaf clover…sticking out from all the rest. How I missed it the first time I passed by, I dunno. There’s no coincidences…just enough messages from “on high” until you get it!
Thanks for sharing, ZP!
God is speaking all the time. We just need to listen. Sometimes, the Almighty has to grab our attention. Aren’t you blessed?
You’d think I’d be more in tune by now?